A Coward
That’s what I am.
I miss someone so much but here I am doing nothing about it. Why?
Because I’m a coward.
Frustrations.
Almost there. Don’t give up now.
Nagrarant lang.
Sometimes I wish I didn’t say it…
It gave me the freedom to express myself… too much. Or well, actually made me feel that I should be careful in the things I say or do. But most of the time, I really don’t care. It made me process things… too much. Overthink. It distracted me.
I want this to end now, but how? I wish I could do what I did weeks ago but I can’t. I have no reason to. Study study study! That’s what I have to do. Keep my mind busy thinking about Economics and Statistics. Maybe that’ll help.
I wish forgetting is as easy as pressing the delete button or snapping my fingers. I’m making such a big deal out of this, I know.
Sometimes I think the reason why I’m forgetful is because there’s always a memory I wish to forget and I think the little me’s in my head mixed up the “what-to-forget” and “what-not-to-forget” files haha
I’m just ranting, okay.
needs someone to tell her that she can do this
Sorry ang… drama pero nappressure, stress, kinakabahan, natatakot na ako haha kahit first exam pa lang ‘to sa Ma151, eto na kasi siguro yung pinakamadali e :S so yun.
And sa kahapon, kasalanan ko naman talaga kung bakit di ako nakaaral e. Nawawalan kasi ako ng… hmmm what’s the word?… “drive” mag-aral. Shet bakit ba ako ganito? HAHA
I need a pep talk :S haha
panic mode
Okay so I wasn’t able to study today because I went out with my friends :S :S :S (hi July and Klar haha) Well, I don’t really regret it :D I enjoyed it! Thank you! Finally I was able to go to Banapple, ate isaw at UP, ate at Mushroom Burger (even saw my Ma151 prof there haha) and finally, ate at Frutti Froyo :D Oh and we also
But now… I have to pull an all nighter to catch up in Ma151 :S :S :S I’m so scared. I feel like I don’t know anything. And here I am ranting instead of studying haha I swear, by 9:30pm, I will throw away this laptop and study study study! I’m glad they arranged our room so that I have room to study! YAY!
Anyway, I just hope that tonight and tomorrow, I will understand all of this shiz. And I hope I won’t fall asleep :S haha
Friends, I have to see you again soon! After my Ma151 exam, perhaps. I might need some booze :> :))
Thank you for today!
